I love getting into morning conversations with myself
Matt’s continuing to relax in bed
Sheba is in and out of the house
I sit in my little corner, my nest, doing my thing
Journaling, reading, digesting, conversing with myself
Using my whole brain, not just the front left lobe which wants to take over and multi-task
This morning I am pondering a chapter in Pauline Boss’ book
There are several concepts I am chewing on:
Resiliency: learning to accept unanswered questions and tempering desire for closure
The natural evolution of independence to interdependence—the healthiness of that
As I was pondering this, reading and rereading the paragraphs, the song from The Byrds “Turn, Turn, Turn” came into my consciousness
The lyrics are limited, so I wanted to add some new ones:
A time for pause, a time to go
A time to be free, a time to be joined
The lyrics repeat “ A time to every purpose under heaven”
There was a time Matt and I were fully functional, independent but joined by choice
The time now is one of interdependence
Accepting that, embracing that, this chapter speaks to the freedom that comes from that acceptance
We went to the Petaluma Music Fest recently
It’s a long day event, we only lasted about 3 hours
Less than perfect outcome, we missed several bands I had wanted to see
Embracing what we were able to see, accepting that as good enough, frees me from negative emotions like disappointment, frustration
Focus on the dancing we did by the picnic tables, enjoying the beautiful day, the bands we did see
That’s getting to be good enough for me
I am beginning to embrace the concept of accepting good enough is a path to sustaining resiliency for this journey

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